TW: Grief talk

Funeral was yesterday. It went well IMO but holy hell I am tired. Tried to start getting back on track today, with a little success... I guess that's something.

One thing that's only started in the last few days or so is that I'll think of her as if she's still here, like "Oh, we should bring her to this restaurant sometime"; yesterday, as we were all leaving from dinner, I even looked around to see if she was ready to leave. It's like I'm processing this backwards: I thought I'd accepted that she's gone and I was just tired, then the sadness kicked in, now I'm periodically forgetting it even happened.

It's... weird.