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My mother finally noticed and commented on my dolls yesterday. She asked about the furniture I have for them and was amazed that I got their chairs and trunk at a yard sale. We briefly talked about trying to sew for the dolls. She didn't make a big deal out of them, just ended off with "stop buying figures". No inquiring about my spending, either, which I'm really hoping will also be the case when my 1/3 resin BJD arrives.

I still have to go for a blood test before I head back to the dorm later. Feels like a bigger ordeal than it is. Why I couldn't get my shit together and do this sooner, I don't know.

For some reason I don't know if I'm emotionally ready to go back tonight, even though I definitely need to. I think that, when I come back home, I get attached to my mother again and the thought of separating from her for a couple of weeks brings me down a bit. It literally will be less than two weeks without her, though.

Aaand now the toddler we're babysitting today is here. Probably will not get much done on the site today lol.

Not ready for real life again

Back at the dorm. Brought back a backpack and six bags full of stuff. Forgot my laptop charger .__.

Ended up napping through most of the time that the toddler was here. Definitely was not intending to sleep for so long but I guess I needed it. Still got to see her for a bit after I woke up at least. Did not end up getting the blood test today but it turns out there's a lab literally in the same building as the clinic I'm going to tomorrow so that works.

For some reason, being at the dorm feels weirder than normal. I think literally everything is tinged with anxiety and guilt right now, though. I probably won't be free of that until that damn exam is done... which isn't until the end of the month.